Hold On Hope.

Yeah so I'm there again.
In that rut.
Where everything is quiet and slow and heavy.
Everything that I 'have to' do, is forced.
It feels forced, and it sucks a huge amount of energy.
I wanna find some sort of a remote, I want to star in a stupid adam sandler movie or smth.
Like hey, fast-forward this shit, please? I want to be nineteen and free.
I don't feel like being this boring, or sleepy or dead.
But I don't want to take control and do things for myself.
The way I think is the problem.
"Ooh, the years burn"
God this is so silly of me.
The killer in me is the killer in you.

sleep-deprived

I think the title speaks for itself.
I have scratches on my chest, after my hell-cat from yesterday.
we were moving and he got scared. poor kitty.
poor maja.
but i'm not bitter
jag ä' inte bitter
cuz I saw Tegan and Sara yesterday at Mejeriet, with johan and cassie <3
they were quite amazing :)
I haven't been able to sleep for three weeks, it's gotta stop!
gonna finish my Extended Essay tonight, don't know how it will specie itself
haha arta sig fattarni.
Luckily school isn't about life. wait a minute.
life isn't about school. but school should be about life.
and not stressful.
Next weekend it's time for the christmas concert YAY.
I'm gonna say a few words first, before I start to sing.
it'll be fun :)
I'm gonna sit up all night writing and tomorrow I'll be nice and dead, in time for my afro-dance session. awesome.
Ah, exercise.

Good shit

true story.

friends

and stuff.
i am so stressed and emotionally something-something, so i enjoy distracting myself with that 70's show and yesterday i even hung out with victor and cuddled with his cat. which was nice. i don't even know if the reasons why i believe i need comfort are justified ones. but i think i need a shoulder for some use. i try to just hang out with friends and see whatever happens. see, at least i feel good when i'm around them, especially victor. i think it's because overall, he's a happy dude. and energetic. friends are important to me actually, even though it seems like school and emotional issues get in the way for me sometimes, since i don't always feel all hoppity-yay. i feel all egotistical now since some of my friends go through shit as well an i guess i don't provide whatever it is that they want, either. but yeah. i wish i could feel more wanted than what i do now, it probably sounds retarded and i know that my friends like me or whatever, but what i know and what i feel are not the same thing.

the prom

just found out that we can go to our school's prom with someone outside of school. YAY. ah the small things in life...

min bakgrundsbild

because I think they're beautiful :)

(rusted root)

Send me on my way

On my way

I would like to reach out my hand
I may see you, I may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young
Well pick me up with golden hands
Oh may see you, Oh may tell you to run
You know what they say about the young

Well I would like to hold my little, hand
How we will run We will. How we will crawl we will.
I would like to hold my little, hand.
How we will run we will. How we will crawl.

Send me on my way, on my way
-Rusted Root.

THE GREATEST SONG IN THE WORLD.

let me tell you why I think this is the greatest song in the world. because, it makes you feel all war and happy the music-video is amazing, I wanna jump around on a mountain like them, I wanna be in my 20's in the 90's, and the lyrics are awesome, Michael Glabicki has one of the best voices I've ever heard and this sng i sone of a kind.

Curly Sue Intro <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7DylNmSqRsA&feature=related

klick that link and watch the most beautiful intro to the most beautiful movie, in the world.
you won't regret it. the music and the images and everything <3>
it's nostalgic to me but it will benefit you as well. just klick it. you know you want to.
xoxo, gossip girl.

bye

Berlin day 1, 15th/9

we're on a boat. (were*)
we stayed in a little apartment thing. cozy

U-bahn

Absurd building.

scary ex-nazi-building

we thought it was water first.

I was in Berlin :D

Cissi got a bear-hug.

insanely large... that's what she said.

Dono what Olof's doing.

Nap-time.


Yeah I thought I mind as well upload some Berlin-pictures. these are from the first day there. 15th/9. we had a lotta fun.

trött.

kan knappt sova alls.
somna kanske halv fem imorse.
vakna nio.
när jag kom hem kunde jag inte komma till ro och bara vila.
och jag antar att det är för att jag är stressad.
jag oroar mig.
och stressar.
och oroar mig.
och grubblar över att jag känner mig besviken.
besviken på folk so fortsätter att lura i mig att dom ska ändra sig och bli bättre.
då går jag och hoppas.
jag hatar att gå och hoppas och sen bara hej då.
gud vilken deprimerande blogg detta har blivit.
jaja jag är kanske lite deppad at the moment.
men som tur är, är november här.
apparantly, ska november vara min tur-period 2009 so yay fingers crossed.
hej.

"best friends are
the most important thing you can get in life, they can help you, be there
for you and care for you until you die. As for our relationship, its only a
teenage thing, it cannot last if we separate but best friends can and you
should remember that."