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Kramkalas Dead!

I dono maybe cassie won the fight but I made her bleed! muhahha *fangs*

A whole week's oppressed aggression just surfaced.

Oh and I am blonde now.

well, more like golden, it gonna get blonder, in like three weeks.

A whole freaking process.

You only live once - The strokes :DDDDDDD

Say hello to my little friend!!!

This is Caio.
He is my bestest friend.
I found him behind a dumbster in Japan.
No, but I found him in Japan, I lived there two years ago.
two years ago, I saw him everyday, we sat on the same school-bus and we sang songs in the morning, pretending we were living in a musical.
and drew stupid things on the white-board.
We ate lunch and sat on the floor in the hallway.
We were the only ones that got mrs. Vaughn's jokes, and actually thought they were funny.
We were the only ones in grade 9, and we used to be quite annoying during maths lessons when it was just us and mr. Bright, and not the grade 10 class.
We had PE with grade 7-8. Good times.
We hung out at starbucks, we bought cd's, we went to PARCO, we went to 390 yen shop and tried on stupid hats.
And we both left.
I went to Sweden, he went to Mexico.
But he's brazilian, people!!
He came to Sweden last summer, (summer -08) and it was the most awesommest 3 weeks ever!!
I miss him.
I am gonna go to Mexico and visit him in the fall.
And we are going to live in NY one day.
And hang out at starbucks.
And when we are about fifty-nine, with 2 failed marriages behind us, we'll marry each other and live in a forest!
Awesome.
Songs like Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson,
Fidelity by Regina Spektor and
Believe by Yellowcard will always
make me think of him.
I just know it.
Aishteru.

we are family!

My family is having issues with the living arrangements.
I wanna be at my mom's place, with the cat and my mom.
My sister wants to live with people in general haha.
My mom wants me to be home with her.
But I have school in Lund, and activities here and my own room.
And it all has to fit but it just can't.
And this is so annoying.

I have three siblings and two parents and one stepparent. (+cat and 14 fish)
So, my family is quite big.
And argh big families are fun but it gets so complicated cuz people are different, and in my family, we are all different.
It gets scary sometimes, even haha.
But I love them though, obviously.
But sometimes I believe I am adopted.
And sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I was.
And my parents were rockstars, or photographers or something.
And that I had an older brother.
But no, cuz I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH A BIG FAMILY.

what was the point with this text anyway? xD
I love em but I hate the fact that me and my siblings can't all be under the same roof.
And that I can have my cat if I want to.
I live at my dads, Oscar lives with my mom.
It's his world, and he loves my mom, it's kinda creepy.
And unfair, it's my fricken cat!
Haha oh well, nothing I can do now :)

I love 'em.
They're all I've got.
I am lucky that I can at least trust my family.
And that I am best friends with my two sisters.
And that I can talk to my mom and my dad about everything.
If I want to.

Family is important.
To me.

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>>Just a little simple stupid input; I do not care for people's blogs when they seriously just talk about their day, their clothes, their social life etc etc. So why shou I keep this blog going? Stupidstupid.

(Amg, I sound like a friend of mine, just like.. bitching and moaning about everything.. I suck!! haha okay I'll write something funny tomorrow!)

Shitty Day

I hate myself today.
I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I hate my face today.
I think I look so shitty.
How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not what you expected.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Soko - Shitty Day

I feel tired, I have a heavy feeling in my chest and I don't feel like laughing.
Stupid sunday, I wanna go out for a walk.
With Molly.

(And the text doesn't just sum up my day, my month, rather. shitty.
I'll try harder :)

Saturday

Me and Cassie hung out with Jonathan after watching Victor doing poi. I tried to braid Jonathan's hair. didn't work.

My eyes turned grey. And I have ruined my two new shirts :( gonna ask my mom to fix it. she can fix anything.

Every little thing

yup it is as I feared.
every little shit-thing I do always reflects on others.
well the ones that don't deserve it.
why is this though?
I am not remotely important as I could be, nor am I interesting and like.. social.
there are so many things I could do so much better and every time I read someting or see someone doing something I've always wanted to do or something I have planned, it hurts.
Because this reminds me that I could do so much more, I could be so much more.
If I only had the energy or even the personality.
I think people expect me to do certain things just because the way I am sometimes just implies that I would do the other.
Problem is that the way I am to people and the way I truly am, differs sometimes.
Not all the time, I certainly don't have any difficulty being myself around people, but just sometimes, I seem more.. more.
When I am in fact not.

I am half as good as you think I am and I am probably twice as good as I think I am.

But this truly sucks though, I am going to try to rearrange my life, find time to do the things I want to and the time do also do the things I must.
I should really start exercising for real and buy clothes I feel pretty in.
I should really savure my relationships to people and be open to others as well.
There are very few people in my school for instance that I find to be of any substance.
People that I can discuss other things that homework or parties with.
But then again why should I be so picky about them?
I am no more special, it is all about relationships to others, how you are with this person, and that person.
It changes.
And that sucks.
Every little detail, every little thing all has to do with states of mind and stuff.
And I need to get a grip, and stop being a bitch and affect the ones that I don't want it to affect.
The truth is, the one that I want to be a bitch towards, is me.
And I am doing a good job actually.
But I should seriously snap out of this.
And I will.
Soon.

Something is not right.

I'll get back to you.

Or not.

I never get to say goodbye.

So this friday, me and cassie and sara went to victor's birtday-party.
it was nice, fun people, not too crowded and it was very relaxed.
I had a fun time.

Me and cassie went up at six am the next morning.
To go to Stockholm.
The train was standing still in some - pardon my french-shithole called
MJÖLBY.
ew ew.
But when we got there, it was nice, and then today we had like worskshops and stuff.
we were there with rbuf.
palla explaining to you who don't what it is.

I got home two-three hours ago.
at ten pm.
and I am tired.




I never get to say goodbye Sid, and tony, tony and sid.


Bye!

Pregnant lesbian.

So at the dinner-table yesterday, I told my dad and my stepmom that carrots usually gives me hick-ups.
They laughed and didn't take me seriously even though it's true!!
Eating carrots does give me hick-ups, most of the time!!
Anyways, so I asked them while they were laughing at me that what if I came home telling them I was a lesbian, or pregnant?
Would they laugh at my face?
Since they didn't take me seriously, I just wanted to know.
And my dad says:
"If you would come home, telling me you're a pregnant lesbian, I'll get hick-ups!!"
I thought that was funny xD

My beautiful sister and my awesome cat.

VICTOR'S 18!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTDAY, GRATTIS PÅ FÖDELSEDAGEN, FELIZ NAVIDAD!!!
wait that's not right.
But yah you're eighteen now, go nuts!!!! <3
Love ya dude!

HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR HAIR!!!!

Okay so yeah that's a pic which I uploaded cuz I love my hair here, so sue me!!!
I also have a huge chin and it really shows here.
My mom says it's majestic!
I agree.
Update:
I have started working out, so far I have gone to aerobics and yoga.
I really like aerobics, it's fun.
for the wrong reasons, I mess up all the time.
hilarious.
I also like yoga, relaxing.
I have a good feeling about this!!
I have lots to do but I am not too stressed at the moment actually.
Because I will survive!!
Hey, hey!! I'm a survivor!!!

bye.

Japanese fatty.

Japanese candy is so much tastier when it's eaten in Sweden.

It's cozy and it brings back memories.

love my stepmom for surpirising me with this. <3

I'm just doin mah thaang!!!

I'm sorry Cassie but I think we're cute here.
And if you don't like it, then consider this as a pay-back for you abusing me in school!
And making me steal.
And take drugs.
And throw rocks at helpless ducks.
"YOU'RE HORRIBLE!!" .
but pretty.
I was Helen of Troy and Cassie was Cassandra.
we did good.
fun party.
don't hate me.

Fishie.

This is Magnus.

He/she is 3 months old.

He won't grow even though he's got this huge jar all to himself.

I just took this photo when I was cleaning his home for him.

He's fisty.

Or she.

En Zäta-fläta

I braided my sister Anna's hair. Just thought you oughta know.