I could use somebody.

I just realised something.
I don't have a SINGLE CRAZY FRIEND.
I need a wack-job, a seriously crazy person with a ot of extra energy with a weird talent, like playing the banjo or something, someone with green hair, someone that can make crazy Maja come out even more. Let me see, is anyone of my friends that doesn't live in Sweden wack-jobs?
Nope, not saying that all my friends are normal cuz they are sooo not normal, I don't like normal, gets boring after a while BUT, they're not very crazy.
I need someone crazy.
I could use someone that's crazy.
I wanna get my toungue pierced by the way, but I don't know how that would affect my singing..
getting off topic, but it is crazy!
Cuz usually, I am so safe when it comes to my appearance, not changing my hair, dressing very safe.
Well, I could be a little more adventureous in some aspects.
Now, the problem is, where to find this crazy person?
I could go out for a walk at night, like at three on a sunday, lets face it who wants to be out that late on a school-night?
Or I could stand by the knee-socks department in a store, cuz who would in their right minds wear knee-socks 2009?
It's soo 2007 *hairflip*
So yeah I am looking for a crazy person here in Lund, know anyone?
I'd prefer it if he/she would be a bit pretty, or at least have a nice breath.
I can't STAND lousy breath.

Someone like you, And all you know,
And how you speak.
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Another evidence of the fact that my cat is crazy, my sister is cute and my camera goes weird when it's filming, and that I RULE at printscreening!!!!!

A lean mean coughing-machine.

Hi, there hello.
I have been sick for five days now, feeling much better now though!
I am just coughing a lot and feeling a bit tired but tomorrow I'll go to school wie.
Due to the fact that i have been sick, I have been a bit off, from society and the reality.
It's been a nice break actually but at the same time I have felt so useless, and a waste of space in some sense of the expression.
And I haven't eaten properly, and my sister Anna has been here keeping me company for the past two days because I am alone at home, and she always wants to eat junkfood with me.
I feel fat, an I seriously need to get a grip of myself and start to do some exercise..
I can't be bothered, every time I really feel that i am gonna start, something happens.
My dad goes out of town, I have a lot of homework, I get sick, and shit!!
Annoying.
Okay yay this was some waste of time for you to read, sorry for not being funnier!
btw I cough a lot still, if I was in a King Arthur Movie I should be called sir Coughsalot.
AND YES, I would be a 'sir'.
did I scare you now?
gahd I hope so.

(My hand looks retarded)

Photo by: cassie ofc.

Robotboy, do you need a friend?

Hi, I know I didn't write anything yesterday but so what?
I was busy, being a good girl doing my homework, I had to do this poem-analysis for swedish which I think went pretty well.
I enjoy analyzing poems and books and stuff.
And I enjoy history, psychology, art, and performing and stuff.
So I don't know what I want to be when I grow up..
OH WELL, I am only seventeen, I've got all the time in the world to make up my mind.
But I better do it, so I won't end up working as a garbage-man.
No offense to garbage-men, they're needed too.
So anyways, at the moment, I have a lot going on in school, many homeworks and projects and tests soon, but the thing is; it doesn't bother me.
The more stuff I have to do, the greater chance it is that I will actually do them.
I don't have much to inform you people about, in my life at the moment.
As I said, a lot with school, and on the social side, well.
Yes, I have friends, and yes I hang out with them.
Mostly Cassie though, I see her everyday in school, but I also try to see Malin every time I'm at my mom's place as well.
I love those two, and I am happy to have them!
Tomorrow I am gonna go and visit my big sis Anna, in Malmö, maybe I'll sleep at her place, but maybe not cuz my parents don't want me to.
She's been sick, well I think she still is.
But she needs a little company, and I always have so much fun with her!
The thing is that when I am with her, i don't feel that I am the little-sister and that she's the older sister.
I am stronger than her physically nowadays so when we fight I win.
But she's more linguistic than me, so if we fight for real, she always end up being right even though she sometimes messes up big time.
She's funny too.
OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT ANNA.
Peace !

Hey now boy, where've you been?
Smashed up toy, are you lost again?

Your batteries low, did you crash again?
Robotboy, do you need a friend?

The grey ceiling on the earth
Well it's lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they're worth
I've been acting like a child
Your opinion, what is that?
It's just a different point of view, oh yeah.

Your Winter - Sister Hazel.
yum.

Mood. Swing.

I really hope this is one of those crazy teenager-things, that like I will one day say
"oh my lord, I was so messed up when I was a teenager, mood-swings like mad"
yada yada.
I know I am not more messed up than most of us, but I am so tired of changing my state of mind all the fricken time.
Yesterday I was so tired of everything, didn't want to do anything, thought everything was hopeless and that things suck.
Okay some things suck.
The fact that time moves faster and faster for every year, I BLAME GLOBAL WARMING.
But yeah that sucks, and stuff.
Wow my arm hurts now, because I sit so low and I have to hold my arm up in order to move the computer-mouse around.
I hate computers.
But yeah, moodswings!
It can get a bit exhausting, the way I am so easily affected by the people that surround me, and the workload I have got, or what weather it is.
I rather like cloudy days, but not when it's windy because I get so beaten down when it's fricken impossible to bike to school, and I get there three minutes late.

I enjoy swings. I will enjoy my mood swings, and enjoy when I am in a good state of mind.
I just need something. I am gonna go and buy some new fish. And cut my hair. And exercise.

Bye.

One of my fish died.
One of the good ones.
She always pressed herself
up against the glass when I
came in the room, and
followed my hand across
the glas and stuff.
Freaky fish.
I hope she's in a better place.
Is there a fish-heaven?

Stupid boy. Stupid boy.

My cat looks like Sméagol sometimes.

I don't really know what to write about.

This is completely useless, and I feel completely useless, and one of the people I love the most is so in a bad place right now and I can't get her out of there and she won't listen or talk to me.

Me!

I am supposedly an important person in her life but she shuts me out.

I wish I could've been better at shutting people out.

I wanna know what it's like being on the other side of the door, just for once.

But the thing is I know that I feel better when I talk about my problems, and when I let the ones that I love, in.

But this person happens to be really shitty stupid and stubborn, and I wanna help her, but I also wanna slap her.

The thing is though, in these situations, I can only hope that she lets at least someone in, who she can talk to and that she sees that I love her.

This feeling sucks.

Why do relationships consist of doors?

I've always hoped it would be like a big round room.

No corners to hide in.

But then again, privacy is awesome.

I love having my own room.

I will keep banging on her door though, hoping that she will let me in or at least let me talk through the key-hole once in a while.

I have absoluteley no idea what i mean by that exactly and it sounds stupid but yah maybe you get my drift.

My mom just stepped on my cat's tail.

Sweet.

Week. End

This is the end, my only friend.
The end.
On some level I really hate weekends.
This is because I always take friday-evenings and saturdays for granted.
I sleep til like 12, and there we go, half of the day just went out the window.
I really do love sleeping but I wouldn't mind doing something on the day of saturdays, and not just hang out with people in the evening.
AMG THE CLOUDS LOOK LIKE THEY BELONG IN A PAINTING FROM THE RENEISSANCE-ERA. (all pink-grey-blue looking)
Anyhow, sometimes it feels like I am wasting my weekends, because when I finally realise that I am free from school and this is a good time to do the things I don't have the time for during school-days, it's a sunday.
A sunday!, for crying out loud.
When I lived in japan, this is how my weekends looked like
Friday-evening: Hanging out with THE GANG, going out to eat with friends, meeting up at Starbucks and walking in stores and buying silly things, and the just goofing around in Peace Park til curfew.
Saturday: Going on the town! With Sara or hanging out with the loverboy or (YAY I GOT A BIT OF CHOCOLATE FROM ANNA WOOT) or;;; just relaxing in my room, painting or something.
Sunday: Doing the four homeworks we had over the weekend. Chill-day.
I loved weekends.
Now, I love when we get a 'study-day' off of school, or if a class has been cancelled.
Or maybe if I have huge plans for the weekend.
Otherwise it feels like time just floats on until I actually do something.
I am not being ungrateful for hanging out with friends or anything like that, I just wished that I had a little more structure.
Not that fridays and saturdays just floats on until I realise that I actually have to go to school the next day.
That damn Sunday-feeling.
(I just had an apple, and my toungue itches and my cheeks are getting red. Maybe I should just stick to bananas.)
The breaks from school feels like my weekends.
I have a break again in four weeks.
yay.
Today I'll hopefully hang out with Cassie.
Even though I kinda made some semi-plans with two other friends.
Why do things have to be soo damn complicated?
Hahahha who am I kidding.
At least I don't have to work each day, putting food on the table, fighting lions, aids, watching the city I live in burn.
Okay getting of topic.
The point is: I will have to do better when it comes to appreciating time.
And weekends.
Life is not all about school!
(Gosh, I need to go and get my allergy-pills, cuz that apple might be the end of me..)

Sometimes you make me want to laugh
Sometimes I wanna take my toaster in the bath.

Today's update:
I hit my arm, when I was about to get my shirt from under my bed, and I will most probably get a bruise, and Cassie has been poking it quite frequently today.
I got a free t-shirt from Open House at my school, as you can see above.
And yes, I tried to kiss the vacuum-cleaner and it totally screwed up my face.
BUT: cheap surgery, any takers?
I can lend you mine.

Open House at Katteeee

Yup, so me and cassie signed us up for helping out at Open House, at our school.

Well CASSIE signed us up.

She'll pay.

So yeah, we didn't talk so much to other possible IB-students, we just ate candy and watched this really retarded movie about the IB.

Hilarious as fuck though.

They chose to interview the most retarded teachers!

Well, two of the retarded ones.

Three.

Good move, THAT will make people consider slowly killing themselves by taking the IB-path.

So yeah.

It was fun though, cuz Cassie is retarded in a good way and I talked to José about stuff.

And well i like the people at my school, in my class.

Sure do!

here are some pics from todaay yaay.

Cissi, Cassie and Linnea, by our lockers in thë (amg awesome dots over the e!!! I'm gonna let it remain that way. ENJOY!)DUNGEONS. The IB is condemned to the dungeons.

Antonia and Gaby.

I miss my cat ._.

He lives at my mom's.

I live at my dad's.

It's a problem.

Luckily, I see him every other weekend.

So he can scratch me and bite me.

He is quite hostile.

To come to think of it..

I don't miss him!

jo.

A hand on you cock,
is more moral,
and more fun,
than a finger on
the trigger.
- Lawrence Lipton